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Sunday, March 16, 2008

A Rant

Enough!
Mediocrity leaves an after taste. What we get is what we deserve. No more forgiveness for the ass holes we are besieged by. Everyone wants understanding but no one knows how to give it. The human heart is under attack in a way so complete and so vicious that it is unmatched by any other other time in history. Love is a hoax played on us by the angeles. Regret is just fine as long as you don't let it solidify into the waxy ghosts that slow your blood. That girl, the one you want will make you happy for one year, two months and a day before whatever it is that brought you together fades. Do what you love and the money will go down that hole. Realistic is a club they use to beat you down. Fuck spelling and grammar -you know what I mean. Sleeping pills and strong coffee give you a life lived like a badly edited movie.
Helicopters are too loud. Old people really do remember an easier time. What will you do when everything around you changes and all the music on the radio is sung in the accent of youth. I once was a man that cast two shadows, one for me and one for the girl I still thought was beside me. Anarchy, like democracy is messy. How about Zen-achy? People who flush the toilet before their done are always in a hurry at everything they do. The real miracle about Jesus was that a white guy with perfect abb's was born in an Arab country. Gold seldom makes a man silent. Why does that metaphor work in the other direction? Show me all the ink blots you want doc, I am still going to say you need a pen that doesn't leak. Love is all you need. Really? Fake it till you make it. In the end, she did to me what her parents did to her. It doesn't comfort me in anyway, but I know it must stay with her like a nail in the head and for that I smile even though it does nothing for my karma. Politics should not be played as a sport. Mac's are better than PC's. If I had the money I would build a light house somewhere in Kansas just to have people come by and ask why. Everything screams at you to conform. There are some notes played on a piano that feel like damp splinters being pulled from the ripe flesh of a first broken heart. She was neither young or foolish, she was cruel. When I was drinking, everything seemed so God Damn poignant. pain is like shit, things you never thought will grow from it. Nosterdomus and Duran Duran were both big in their day. No one dates anymore. Where ever light comes through in slanted shafts, that's a church. Money only buys paper work, a little more security and the fear that something will happen to it. God so loved us that he sent his only child to die. You ever really think about how fucked up that is? My father once sent me out in a snow storm to get coffee for the neighbors and I never forgave him for that. oblivion is the perfect vacation. I once was in love with a girl whose skin was the color of an approaching thunder storm. It was smooth like the petals of a rose too. I never thought was for real when I read it. Just a finger tip run along her arm sent an electric thrill all over my body. I once had a girlfriend who got angry at me every two months because I didn't tell her I loved her. I once had a girlfriend who I pledged everything too. It was easier than you think when the most precious thing in your life was her. I once broke up with a girlfriend in a cafe thinking it would minimize the drama factor. I was wrong about that. She stood up from the table and shouted, "I don't want to date you either! and ran out like a scene in a movie. It was so quiet. Not even a fork on a plate or ice moving in a glass could be heard. The waiter came over and in a combination of pity and genuine enjoyment raised his eye brows and simply asked, "Check?"
I once did nothing but ecstasy for weekends at a time in hotel rooms with a girl who was part Korean and part French. It sounds like a novel you might read in an airport because your bored. After awhile even the most amazing sex got boring. I saw her again on one of the most awkward gig's I ever did. She was over weight and engaged so everything felt fair in a fucked up way. All of this is bullshit on some level. If a train leaves Chicago at midnight traveling at 60 MPH and has to get to Denver in less than 15 hours, should it wait for time travel to be invented or just trudge upon those shinny rails like everyone else? Someone told me my name is part of a sign for a show on busses around town. Wow! Do you know what that means? Everyday thousands of people look at my name and go, "Who?" I keep my pain from her. I want to let it go. Not because it's all I have left to remember her by, but because it requires a tremendous amount of work to get rid of it. All great comedy comes from the same place.
Scientist say there are traces of pharmaceutical in our drinking water. That's great. Most of America can't afford prescription drugs anyway, so now we can all get medicine. I have never understood why there are high altitude baking instructions.

4 comments:

mermaidintherudder said...

< pain is like shit, things you never thought will grow from it.>
Fkn brilliant. If you had said that within arms' distance of me I would have tried to kiss you.

< Scientist say there are traces of pharmaceutical in our drinking water. That's great. Most of America can't afford prescription drugs anyway, so now we can all get medicine. >
good attitude. I didn't think of it that way.

< I have never understood why there are high altitude baking instructions.>
a. 1st class used to get fresh baked cookies
b. Some people like to bake when they are "high"

Joe said...

I will try to say it again within arms distance then=)

Anonymous said...

You know, she's back in California.

Joe said...

So is inflation and killer bees. What’s your point, oh stranger that enjoys pouring salt into wounds anonymously?